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Samantha
24 July 2019 @ 13:15
I need more local girlfriends. Pretending most of my friends were women in the first place, they're all in St. Pete. So, I've been messing around with networking and socializing outside of my comfort zone. I've been going to events, volunteering, reaching out and partnering with classmates and co-workers. Granted, I've not been networking with co-workers with the hopes of finding friends, haha - I don't like co-workers being too close to my personal life, as it always ends up complicating things at some point. I even downloaded the Bumble app - I'd never heard of it before, and was really skeptical. But, after going through the BGG option, I've also noticed that 99% of the people at women, at least that pop up for me - I don't know if that's a setting or anything, I really don't know the app yet; but I was looking forward to connecting with some new females looking for the same things. It's actually really crazy/amazing/sad that there are so many looking for genuine people, genuine relationships, and best friends (not just those looking for workout buddies and kid playdates, etc). I've had really decent intros to about a dozen ladies. After the small talk, though, they're short answers and not sharing or asking anything worth responding to - I swear, it's like pulling teeth trying to have a substantial/decent conversation last more than a few words or sentences. I'm losing my patience, honestly. I uninstalled the app once before, and am thinking about doing it again. It's just... what's the point? And ironic, perhaps, one of the ladies' profile had a question about "why are you here?", and her answer was "I figure I'll get married one day, and I'd like bridesmaids that aren't my mother". I laughed and messaged her right away, of course, as I'm in the same boat. But it was one of the least interesting intros/small-talk beginnings, and hasn't gone anywhere since. I feel like people don't know how to talk to each other anymore. Or don't see the point unless there's a meme, or some social-media-worthy to post about, or a photo op of some kind. Nobody is actually working on the things they're looking for - whether it's just hanging out watching movies, or actively having GNO's and going on adventures - there's so little genuine effort that it's just.. mind-boggling.
 
 
mood: annoyedannoyed
music: Cracker - Low
 
 
 
Samantha
07 March 2019 @ 13:40
I had some plans to start updating again. Even told some of you about it. It'd been working well for you. Sure, I could do it too.

Clearly not.



Either way, I've realized, for somebody who has a lot, lots of things, experiences, friends, and even family - you do just as much complaining (if not more so).

And when I've reached out, as I don't have a lot of those things, I'm met with defeaning silence. Yet I see you're wildly vocal everywhere. But also specifically cryptic, and negative here.


I used to get so frustrated. Now, I just feel bad for you. Of course, this sometimes just makes me want to reach out more. But I don't. So, lose/lose for me.

Which just makes me frustrated and tired.


This cycle is ridiculous.
 
 
mood: disappointeddisappointed
music: Phish - Farmhouse
 
 
Samantha
25 December 2017 @ 00:16
I'm going to try to write here more often. For some reason, talking here seems easier than talking to you. Probably because it's easier to handle no-response here, than when I attempt to converse with you.
 
 
 
Samantha
28 July 2011 @ 18:11
 
Do you think that criminals should be able to profit from selling their memoirs, after serving jail time?




Fuck no. I'm assuming that a lot of this is due to Casey Anthony? And, even though that's very much a local story, and even though she's very much a local criminal.. still no.

HOWEVER - I'd encourage criminals to write books and memoirs, and make movies, and whathaveyou. Mostly because I believe that any 'profit', and any 'sales' or 'proceeds', should go to the State/Department that prosecuted the criminal, if the criminal wasn't already sued or charged with 'paying the state and tax-payers back'. But not even the State/Department, if people are too picky - as we know that the less-crime-filled states would start to complain.. Have all profit go to the Country deficit/debt, then.

At the same token, this is one of those 'in a perfect world' things - as this would never happen. Just like the major corporations will still get the bailouts, most more than once, even. Just like tax cuts will always be perceived as unfair.

Just my two-cents, though.

I think everybody should have the chance to learn from, or just take from, the criminals - especially if the criminal has learned something, themselves, or 'become a better person'. Fact is, jail-time can drastically change a person - better or worse - and I think everybody has a right to talk about, write about, and share their experiences; especially if somebody else can learn something from it. I do not think, though, that there should EVER be monetary profit from committing a crime - no matter how small. Your profit, as a criminal (if going strictly by the question, and being 'after serving jail-time'), is the fact that you're no longer in jail; or the fact that you can see your book or movie sales (because you'd know, if you are printing more, seeing the orders, etc), the fact that you can share your story (should you choose to).

Perhaps the only way for this to work would be that, when going to prison, and/or getting let out, this would be one of those conditions or agreements. 'Any profit from this point forward from anything dealing with my life, my story, my experiences up until this point, etc..'.. would be awarded to the state, department, and/or the country..

ha.
 
 
mood: disappointeddisappointed